Against All Odds

Chapter Twelve:

The next morning, Thursday, I walked up to school with swollen eyes. Last night,was not a good night. I cried myself out. I couldn't sleep.I felt so heavy, then.

Then, on the side of the lockers, I saw Tracy standing there, fidgeting her books. I walked up to her side.

"Trace?" I asked but she totally ignored me. "Tracy, please listen to me? I'm sorry. Dave & I didn't mean it..."

But Tracy shut her locker up and walked out on me.

I bowed my head, controlling the tears welling in my eyes. Oh, I just remembered, today, I have no more best friend. I thought as I continued to walk the crowded hallway of the school.

We're not friends anymore, we're enemies. How could a kiss change everything? I felt so sorry for Tracy. I know she felt betrayed. By me, her own best friend. How could I? She told me her problem and I just let her slip out of my fingers. I care so much about myself and Dave. I should have told her right from the start.

I shook my head. Wrong, totally wrong! Then, I thought of Jeremy. I know, he's mad at me,for sure (like for the time being he's been so loyal and nice to me, this is what I'm going to give him?).

Then, I thought of Dave. Dave. He's so wonderful. I sighed a little. He kissed me... for the 2nd time. And for the 2nd time, I kissed him... back, too. Am I that worse? I can't even control myself for just one kiss? I bit my lip. No, for the 2nd kiss?

Stop it, Lizy! I told myself. It's time to move on. What you don't want to do already happened. It's over, but you have to admit both of you did it again! I shook my head. I don't want to think of Dave anymore.